Culture / Society

"I thought trolling only ever happened to the Kardashians, but then it happened to me"

By Natalie Salmon
Night and Day

Photo: Peter Gehrke

From the outside, things might look rosy on the surface (or even on the Insta grid) but the reality can be very far from it...

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Have you ever received a message and your whole body starts shaking? It’s quite an intense and visceral reaction: the adrenaline pumps through your body, your face feels hot. Your heart drops into your stomach. You breathe quickly.

“Please eat something your face looks skeletal.” I was so ashamed. Are people going to read this? Were they going to think something was wrong with me? Do people think I am doing this on purpose? I had posted a photo of myself during London Fashion Week in September and this had elicited my first ever ‘troll’. The weight loss was caused by stress. (I was going through a divorce at the time - out of respect for my former partner I will not go into any details.)

I wanted to power on, put on a brave face and act as I normally would during that time. My work has always been a coping mechanism and at that time it was a very welcome distraction. Of course, the troll didn't know any of this. For all they knew I was just a vapid Insta-attention seeker, flexing about Fashion Week on the gram. I get it. You have an open Instagram profile, and you leave yourself open to criticism. What I wasn’t prepared for was the relentlessness of the ‘troller’ - something I now look back on a few months later and realise… I probably couldn’t really handle.

She looks 40 easily and if she’s not careful she’ll have the ovaries of an 80 year old and ruin her fertility.